Very Short Post

Because if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.  2014 was long, difficult, lonely and painful.  I can't look forward to things being any different in 2015.  There were some bright spots, but not enough to overpower the dark ones.  So much for another year.

Heart, Hands, Hawaii and Holidays

In the biggest news, I went to Maui for a long weekend in early December.  It was beautiful, and I was sad to return home.  This is the only vacation I can remember where I imagined chucking it all and staying there.

 

I was only back for a couple days when I had to get an echocardiogram (heart ultrasound) and 48 hour Holter monitor.  The echo was a breeze, the monitoring was miserable.  I'm allergic to the adhesive and electrode gel, so the whole test period was itchy, painful and overall unpleasant.  But at least it's done.  The follow-up showed nothing bad, which is frustrating but better than OMG your heart's going to explode!!!

Fatigue has been kicking my butt up, down and sideways.  My hands and joints have been increasingly painful and fumbly, so I'm getting little knitting done.  I don't know how to think of myself now that I can barely make anything.  Being a Maker was such a big part of my identity.

And lastly, holidays.  I'm mostly alone this year, as friends have moved, moved on, or can't understand or cope with how sick I am.  I may look ok, but I am very ill.  I do have a couple family events, and hopefully I'll be able to attend and enjoy those.  Wishing everyone reading a happy holidays and happy new year.